'Time Goes Nowhere on Itchy Red Runways'..x
Includes: A FREE PDF BOOK LINK! A Meander Down Stonewall Lane & Wee Bit of Relationship Historical Musings..x
Monday 2 June 2025
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*NEWS* My cousin who I haven’t seen since she was a little girl is celebrating her 21st birthday today. I’m still in contact with her Dad (my uncle) and he told me how ‘time goes nowhere’ giving me the idea for the title today. I have this saying ‘time is a tricky little fucker’ which originated somewhere by someone else. Mind eludes me at times so I’m not sure when about the original phrase or term came into my life or where from. I do remember a song connected to my ‘memory’s version of my ex-relationship’. #SayHello
When I refer to my ‘ex’ I always, most usually, mean my first love ex. There are a couple of other VIP ex-relationships but I forget those. Not the people, the time spent together. Time goes nowhere.
I remember my Panda ex but consider him still to be my friend. So, rather than an ex he is my old friend (and he’s at a different stage of his life than I am now). In his early 50’s he has recently become, for the first time, a Granddad (or Pops) or Granddaddy (as I piped up saying to him).
It was right after I was about to be flirty with him (via messages) and ask does he miss me ‘sitting on his knee!?’ ha.ha.ha - how bloody apt. that his reply would be ‘sorry. busy. I’ve just become a Granddad!’ I wished him and his beautifully growing family all the best.
I could talk about him all day really. We only caught back up with each other late last year. I still get warm flushes when I think about us; and, our shared history (as fleeting as it was). The first love - not so good an outcome.
In hindsight, my heart was crushed. That’s it.. In hindsight, 20 years after the fact, I learned just how sinister that situation actually was, no wonder he wants nothing to do with me now I am grown up. Probably wondering whether I was revenge for what he had done to me.
My mind has never been the same since, and never truly will be - nor should I want it to be. I still feel like it was only yesterday where I was clinging onto him… as he hovered me over the banister of the stairs, threatening to let go, head first; thank fuck he didn’t drop me on it. Things might’ve turned out better had he though…
I mean, he definitely succeeding in fucking my head up. Better for him it happened this way, kept his niiiiice white walls clean and free of bloodshed. I miss fucking him on that bright, pulsing, plush carpet throughout his hallway, felt like royalty sucking his dick on the ‘itchy red runway’ - or was that just his nickname for my ‘00’s- go-faster-stripe’ (Brazilian?)’ pubic bit! ha.ha.ha. ;)
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Stonewall came down today.
Time goes nowhere does it? It flies when you’re having a good time. Today has been a flipin’ whirlwind of activity since he came out of hibernation and the stonewall came down. My partner I’m talking about. We’re preparing for going away together (nothing fancy but for privacy reasons will tell you all about it in the aftermath!).
However, he has been super excited and therefore, participating properly in life with me again. He washed some dishes, tinkered with the broken hoover, dabbed a blob of paint here and there in the entire flat (“touching up the paint”) apparently; pulled a massive single weed out of the ground in the garden - I didn’t ask why just that one for want of sounding ungrateful. Thought maybe it had done something personal to offend him!! ha… ;)
I swear it was a shocking experience for me to see his lump of a body (gorgeous as it is) not stationery for a change. I’d forgotten what he looked like in motion!! Not gonna lie, it pleased me and uneasy both at the same time. #GoogledStonewall
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Starting on Tuesday 3 June 2025: I’m going to post all week 6 days to my blog (online only). If you want to read these letters in real time, please follow and/or subscribe (to access Subscriber’s Chat) so when I post online ONLY and just share a link to it in the Chat, you’ll be able to keep on top of them as they’re coming.ON SUNDAYS I’LL SEND YOU A ROUND-UP EMAIL WITH QUICK LINKS TO ALL THE WEEKS NEWSLETTERS. How’s that sound to you? Good I hope? ..x
Books I’m Reading:
Doctor Sleep (just finished The Shining!), Stay With Me by Ayobami Adeboye via e-book PDF (linked HERE and see below for details) AND finally, a little light bedtime reading, every night for the past (night), since last night… drum roll….
..is: The Complete Works of St. John of The Cross for more info (and FREE PDF LINK for that book) also just to read another ‘side/version’ of me - go see my secret side-stack post in chasingthemuse.substack.com
Blast From The Past (apt) EXIT SONG: NB: old ‘rave/happy hardcore’ memories come flooding back…give it a chance to kick in but if you’ve clicked play and would rather “kick my fucking head in - than listen to that shite” see just underneath for the original version. Rush Hour by Jane Wiedlin (I think at 42 nearly 43 years old, I prefer the OG track now. #EasyListening
Updated my bio again today:
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