"Rock Sadness & Hate Gracefully"

Includes: AudioPoem by Adam Crawford.

Jun 14, 2024

Hello My Friendly ‘Daily’ Chasers!

It’s so great to be back with you tonight (13 June 2024 - just gone midnight) because I have taken a couple of days out to write something for my life & relationship essays on my other newsletter: *NEW*JustClingingOn If you haven’t been there already please see if you find time or get a chance to look through the entire blog because there’s enough but not too much for you to catch up on and every so often I do a recap check in or personal update in the format of a ‘confessional letter type essay’ and it’s always nice to know that you’re fully aware of the person behind the content you are receiving on the daily chase. I am far from ‘all together’ my ducks are not always in a row, in fact I think my ‘ducks’ are penguins and most of the time they are skating on thin ice, they’re very cute and loyal and stay in pairs. Like me in my sometimes very loving yet volatile, co-dependant maybe?, at times toxic, 14 year relationship. We live alone together. I know that makes perfect sense to you. I am going to talk a little bit about it here (because I never can departmentalise my writing life from my love life and keep all my eggs in the one basket). This is why it’s quite important for you to recognise that when I write I just presume you are keeping up with me everywhere. That said, below is the link to the most recent complaint um… update and today is where I will begin in the aftermath of considering everything I have been ‘thinking, experiencing and feeling’ since writing. If you’d like to just read the rest of this now, skip past the link and continue into the page. I hope you enjoy this short read. Comments are open if there’s anything else you need to ask or talk to me about.

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“Rocking My Sadness”

By the way, the title and these subheadings were inspired by - in fact stolen entirely from the poem below by Adam Crawford a beautifully intelligent and funny poet from somewhere in the States. I don’t know what it is about the American voice and words written but I absolutely love this poet’s fucking genius poems. Please check out his Bandcamp Page where you can make any kind of donation to download his recordings or if that’s not possible you can support his work and show some love by following and sharing (even downloading a poem or two for no price at all) it’s very kind and daring of Adam to offer his work to everyone in this name your own price way. Kudos! I am currently offline from Instagram so I am unable to share his info.

As far as my own sadness goes today I have had to take back control of my life from the angle of there being a possibility that one day sooner or later I might have to go it alone again. I won’t go into details of how I am now one step closer to being back in the driver’s seat of my life (“oh so you wanna play that game” he says “fuck you Miss Independent!” my partner is taking it to heart that I am taking back some of the reigns). However, I am pleased to be applying myself accordingly towards the current situation we are in but it’s tinged with bittersweet sadness that it has taken this long for it to come to this. It’s not the end of the world (or our relationship - hopefully) but could just be the ticket we need to improve this as a better more possible partnership.