⭕Nobody But You⭕
Xmas Eve: Day 1 of 7 Daily Discussions! Just 'til The End of December.
Dear ALL Readers! This is an 'introductory note' before I start this letter, to open with something different and give you the entire gist of what has got me thinking (and the old fingers tapping away at the keyboard this evening), and that is the loneliness of existence. The overall final reasoning behind me putting this essay/letter together (if it does come together, or into existence at all!) it will remain to be seen, if you are seeing this now though, even THIS TITLE began life before me, from a Poem I borrowed by Charles Bukowski. It states the 'obvious' as we would know, or most of us have thought to ourselves over the course of our lives, that this one line, the title of my letter tonight and Bukowski's insightful poetry in 'Nobody But You' - or as I internalise it and have set on a loop in my brain lately, ''nobody but me, can save me''. As much as we could or might have denied ourselves from this truth, it has probably occurred to us, me and you too that this 100% true at least once in our lifetime alone. Nobody can save you from yourself. Nobody can save you but yourself is the first step is to acknowledging that you are worth 'saving' but the hardest task is accepting defeat to the point of giving up fighting against it. You know what I mean? When you stop thinking up ways to destroy yourself, to escape the pain, and regain a new routine whereby you begin to fix things. The final challenge is to realise and actualise that we really do want to be saved. We need saving. I know I do right now. My entire life I've placed myself under the microscope of my accusatory mind. Now its time to be a kind. I'm taking it upon myself to write tonight on this quiet time of the year (Christmas Eve to some, 24 December and/or pay day to others, longest or shortest night of the year), because I am not by myself fortunately but in many ways I am always absolutely alone. I am remembering those who are going through their own kind of crisis, thinking of those who have no choice but to spend time by themselves over this seasonal period, but who just can't bare it alone, for the grievers, the losers, the loners, the lovers, and for those troubled folk (like you and I) who might be going through another miserable dark night of the soul. Let's fight the good fight with our minds, not against but for ourselves, even small goals like typing a rambling letter in the cold, or boiling a kettle absent minded, ignoring dishes in the sink, pouring yourself a hot drink (or a cold one if you prefer) and sitting down to read what this is all about, in the hope it could make you feel better (and hopefully not worse!) every win is a win! :) Not to forget those who have surpassed the suffering if only for a short moment this year - if you're already feeling quite chipper I hear you! I'm here for that too. Good on yer my friend, celebrate in style, if you get chance to sit down and take time out to read this, I appreciate it, this letter is for you too. Lets dig in.. x
POEM: nobody but you by Charles Bukowski nobody can save you but yourself. you will be put again and again into nearly impossible situations. they will attempt again and again through subterfuge, guise and force to make you submit, quit and/or die quietly inside. nobody can save you but yourself and it will be easy enough to fail so very easily but don’t, don’t, don’t. just watch them. listen to them. do you want to be like that? a faceless, mindless, heartless being? do you want to experience death before death? nobody can save you but yourself and you’re worth saving. it’s a war not easily won but if anything is worth winning then this is it. think about it. think about saving your self. your spiritual self. your gut self. your singing magical self and your beautiful self. save it. don’t joint the dead-in-spirit. maintain your self with humor and grace and finally if necessary wager your life as you struggle, damn the odds, damn the price. only you can save your self. do it! do it! then you’ll know exactly what I am talking about.
24 December 2025 - The (Xmas) Eve of Epistemic Existential Loneliness
⭕Dear Chasers!⭕
Happy Xmas & Merry New Year - (if you celebrate).
I like to get the formalities out of the way before I purge my soul on the page, its not all pretty heart-shaped-confessions, not all beauty sparkles. I take the quote “Light Is Easy To Love, Show Me Your Darkness” to a whole new level.. .x
This is one of my ‘better’ dark days:
This is one of my worse (where I overshare & don’t care):
Tonight (Xmas Eve) - I was going to talk about all the complexities of the way I’ve been feeling lately. However, since stumbling upon this video I’m feeling a bit more cautious of what I should be sharing or whether I even want to talk about it after all.
⭕All The Best!⭕
from your faulty-mate, Chasey! xx
