Changes (Again!) .
I'm so sorry for the disruptive posts falling out of sync with original schedules.
Hello Everyone!
It’s with my deepest regret to inform you that once again I will be making some changes to this newsletter and it has come about after my wee feelings were hurt from losing one subscriber. Honestly, every single subscriber means the world to me. Before, I get into it with you I just thought it best to be honest with myself. I love writing and posting on a daily basis and will continue to do so with or without the support of my friends and followers staying subscribed to my newsletters. Nothing drastic is going to change really other than, I have had to put the best thing about this blog in my opinion which was the Aural Contraband Playlists… ON PAUSE FOR NOW duff duff duff SLAM.
I hear you walking out the door on me, moreover, I hear you and I agree. It has come as a shock to my nervous system something of a traumatic experience propped up and plunged me into a deep depression - it was a breakup, a false arrest, an embarrassing escape, an injury, a reunion, a realisation, an obsession… I felt loss, injustice, grief, love, desire, angst and all these emotions all of a sudden all creeping up on me as a constant and I can only pinpoint one - my false arrest and almost 24hrs held in Police custody - that was the straw which snapped the camel’s back. I am a shell of my former self. My mind is shot and very fragmented. I have been channelling a lot through my own escapism - which you’ll be very shocked to discover - has not involved any cocaine or any other drugs. I am only pausing the music side of things including Sunday Album stuff because for a short period of time I won’t have access to my resources to enable me to upload the files due to other personal restrictions.
I just trusted my gut instinct and told myself that if I was going down, already falling I only wanted to fall back in love - and go down on him. I almost forgot where I was yesterday or the early hours of this morning when I posted talk of this CHASING THE MUSE kind of stuff, which I usually do over on my segregated newsletter HERE. The thing was that when I published it here by lack of care and attention, it has lost me a valued subscriber (I have no idea who it was who left me) I just saw the number drop. By one but it was more than enough to get me to pull up my socks and re-evaluate my situation in writing and behaviour in words and at home.
As I am still on bail now until the 13 August 2024 I cannot tell our side of that story until it is all over. I want you to know that I haven’t done anything illegal. I was only put under arrest - wrongly and illegally so - because I was non-compliant about something else. Once this is all a thing of the past I will come back here or over on my personal and private life and thoughts *NEW*JustClingingOn Newsletter. I would love you to reconsider if you’re already thinking of getting out of here, and think on even for a moment longer, maybe heading over to these other newsletters I mention because they’re all FREE and not so frequent, hopefully very interesting if only to be a lesson how NOT to live your life in your early 40’s with toxic partner’s and your own cheating heart. That makes me cry a lot but somehow the presence of that sort of induced emotion overlords the old unwanted thoughts and feelings tricking the nervous system or so I’ve lead myself to believe.
IN the meantime, will you please just stay with me here on The Daily Chase Newsletter & Podcast - even just for a bit longer. It’s totally FREE and I promise it will in future never be as heavy as those other letters. Not even like this one that sort of reeks of potential drama. I will keep those separate.
Over on those other blogs I really do try and write from a pathologically-fucked viewpoint and recently more so than usual I have been fucking everything up. I have been rummaging through all my notebooks and piecing parts together to reach out to someone I had a thing for in my head - all in the imagination of course- just to hide away from the harsh reality around me here at times (my partner and the dog have come back home and we’re almost back to the regular ‘normality’ of our little fucked up family unit). Lola the puppy-teen dog is being very naughty since returning, so we have disrupted her little life and its taking a lot of work to help her readjust.
This is the last of the most personal stuff on The Daily Chase Newsletter & Podcast but to clarify I will be posting every day going forward. I want to and intend to do something worthwhile at the same time. Scroll down for the next trial-and-error attempt at an itinerary.
So… what’s happening?
I promise to give you something more interesting than just my internal dialogue. I am neither a journalist, essayist, or professional (as in earning) writer. I do have a lot of time on my hands and when I’m not eating, bathing, shopping, smoking, mothering (the dog), sleeping or cleaning (pfft.. as if! ) ha! I am reading and WRITING something.
Unknown Posts will include:
Written Work
Image Art
Music Video (YouTube)
A recorded Message