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Quick MORNING Update [25.09.24]
WEDNESDAY MORNING 25 September 2024
Quick Morning Update
I open the door to my kitchen like a melancholic burglar. Clicked the kettle on to boil, and reluctantly drank a pint of tap water. I had been trying to incorporate consuming more hydration into my routine. I have never enjoyed H2O or ‘council pop’ as they used to call it in our house back in the 80’s. I tend to drink it from a bottle with disposable filters in there but to be fair I’ve not bought a replacement filter for a long time and the water seems to be tasting more and more like metal every time. I feel like I’m trying to balance febrile emotions; a combination of enlightenment and relief in that all of my suspicions and problems within my relationship, might have just been paranoia. This isn’t a good thing but your learn to live in hope and celebrate being ‘wrong’ more than you would if you didn’t have this evil mental illness. I’m beginning to believe that it could be untrue. That it might be because I am due to have my medication topped up after last months has worn off now. I am back in the psyche room tomorrow. IN the meantime, thank you for following me on this crazy fucked up journey; even though as an emotional, highly sensitive, sad little schizophrenic I must be the most unreliable narrator of my own experiences there ever could be. Go easy on me! Now, coffee.